Those words spoken by my midwife at our first ultrasound were unexpected, unbelievable (literally), and needed to be spoken six or seven more times before they were accepted as truth. Nothing has been the same from that moment forward, and things will probably continue to get more crazy and unbelievable!
WE ARE HAVING TWINS!!!
I am so glad that "the cat is out of the bag" now so I can share this experience and just talk about it! Holding that secret in was the hardest thing I have ever done... I mean, the most shocking and life changing thing was happening to Manimal (my husband) and I and I had to keep it in and not talk about it! Torture.
So after my midwife had begun the ultrasound and told us that two babies were in there, this is what happened....
Everything in my brain went black and I just couldn't compute. It was like someone just told me that unicorns exist and that I would be meeting one later on that afternoon. I just said, "no there isn't" or "nu-uh" or something like that.... its still a little blury, but I do remember asking her six or seven times to clarify her statement and reasoning behind the statement. She had to point at the screen at each one and show me that there were 2. She even locked in on one at a time and showed me their little bodies! They looked like tiny little cute frogs!
I don't know if I had processed it yet, but I remembered that I was married and that Manimal was in the room having a reaction of his own. He had jumped to his feet and had clasped both hands over a huge smile. He was kind of yelling/laughing and his eyes were watering. He couldn't really speak, and each time my midwife was reassuring me that she wasn't lying, his strange laugh-yell got louder. There were points when his face was 2 inches away from the screen and he couldn't seem to say anything other than, "Oh my gosh!"
It felt like my brain wanted to stop everything from happening and just have a second, but I caught up to myself again and realized I was clutching Manimal's shirt. By this time, my midwife had concluded that the twins were Fraternal (not Identical) because they were each in their own placenta and had space between the sacs and had printed out a few pictures. She suddenly said, "let me just make sure there isn't a third one in there" we silently held our breath while she looked (at this point, anything was possible). No triplets.... enter sighs of relief.
I am sure that the angels watching us through all of this were having the time of their lives! Our reactions were priceless, I'm sure.
I think the reason we were so shocked and astonished was because twins don't really run in our families! Manimal was actually adopted, so we don't even know what is in his genes, but my family hasn't had a twin in it since my great grandma! (and when twins are fraternal, it is because of the mom's genes) That fact, plus the fact that we didn't think we would get pregnant that fast anyways made any possibility of twins just....not a possibility.
After the appointment was all over, me and Manimal were left to process what just happened, and what was going to happen next. We were in our car just kind of sitting there. It reminded me about our wedding day when him and I got into the car alone after the temple and just had a moment to let the significant change of our lives settle in. I don't know if I could say that I was happy about the news, but I wasn't angry either.... just worried and anxious. Manimal, however, was pretty ecstatic and just kept kind of giggling to himself with joy and excitement. (It was adorable)
Since then, a lot has changed already! Nothing has really physically changed (except for a small bump on my belly, and my ability to cry, laugh, and become furious within seconds) but a lot has changed mentally. Manimal is starting to feel more pressure on providing for a family twice its original size, and I am becoming more in love with my little ones and feeling so excited and blessed that this is happening to us! I still have the same fears as any pregnant lady about things going wrong, but we have to stay positive.
We went in for our 12 week appointment yesterday and we got to see them again! Instead of looking like frogs, they were fully developed little humans! They are both squirming around and moving their tiny little limbs all over the place. All I can think about is what a miracle they are and how much I love them.
There is still a lot of road ahead full of unsurity, but one thing is for sure, Those Crazy Wayments just got a little bit crazier!
